until everything is perfect, because it never will be. So true! I think most of my posts are about the dismal experience I have trying to los weight and get smaller. About how I can't seem to "get it right" or how I fail to eat healthy and then turn into a raging beast and tear through the fridge and cupboards eating evertything I want and obviously don't need. I am not sure why I can't seem to find the trail that will lead me to being 130 pounds, super hot and sexy. The trail...is the eating trail. Nothing else, it really is all about eating for me, I have a seriously hard time dealing with feeling hungry. I averaged 2000 calories the past week, that needs to be down to 1600 at the end of next week. First week showed me that Thursday I have a hard time not eating the snacks at GBCC. This wil be taken care of when I am done there but until now I must figure out a way to avoid them. I also found out for the 50th time that trying to reduce calorie intake for alcohol intake NEVER works. Friday I tried to do that and I ended up over eating and snacking bc I was hungry. Saturday I just felt like a complete and utter failure bc of the previoud 2 days and so I ended up consuming about 3000 calories.
Now it's sunday and the beginning of a new week, I am currently STILL debating on whether or not to go to the gym and do some cardio. I really should bc I def need to eat too, if I work at 4 I would want to eat at 330, so get there at 315, be done working out at 245, Johnny motivator said to do 30 min of cardio 6x per week. Doesn't seem like a lot at all. If I do 45 toda I would have to get to the gym at 2 leave at 130 so I pretty much better get my butt moving but also I want to do progress pics today...ugh...I really don't want to do..but I need to.....
